Frolick in the sand or lounge on a yacht :)

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I finally found the beach items I needed to make this a perfect season..now heres the hard part you decide...Rose or Violet?

Wouldnt be PinkChampagne without my champagne wardrobe lol

Gorgeous silk top and pants with my trusty Pedros <3>
Aaaah The bane of my existance...Ive been looking for this shade of red since forever every season

Lets hope this year I can add to my collection

Summer is finally here! well almost :)
For me that means carefree days...great music and lazy afternoons getting together with friends ignoring responsibilities and deep issues..although with the humidity its not fun weather in this place but hey,...its all worth it...this season has gorgeous S/S 08 wardrobes that Ive been loving delving into and Ive been skipping to work with thoughts of new additions to my new summer wardrobe...God its great to be a girl :D
So much has been happening over time on both a personal and profession level.
With the heat slowly seeping into the city alternating with the occasional warm breeze I feel the urge to begin a new chapter of my life...stepping out of my comfort zone and trying new sssexy things...maybe that pilots licence Ive lusted over since forever...continuation with My French tutor at home to perfect the ultimate language of sultriness or finally get that gorgeous honey dipped golden tan that Ive always wanted :)
My annual time off work is this winter as usual where I get to spend 9 glorious weeks traveling to fun places...My first option is New York followed by Boston Cali and DC and last but not least a stopover in london or Paris or maybe the gorgeous Italian islands of Portofino and Scicily...maybe Rome...who cares...the world is our oyster...so much time and so little to do...but this time after settling at work and having my consultants happy with me being on top of my work I feel that its time for a new revamped moi...Every now and then I morph into a better more adventurous version of another me and never look back.
The best thing about summer is that I unfailingly begin my high school ritual of compiling my summer reading list (any suggestions would be welcomed xx) and of course who can forget Sex and the City the movie...I picked up 27 dresses after work right now and Im glad I have time to enjoy this weekend chilling out with a lighthearted comedy.
I think with every season and every age it's always good to set something to look forward to....it prevents life from getting bland especially with the whole new world we live in to discover...After all the phases and lives Ive lived...I feel that Ive only scratched the surface...I look forward to all that life has to offer be it good or bad...because at the end of the day the even the bad leaves you with lessons you will never forget to enrich the spirit...depending on how you look at it :)
I think the problem with our generation is that we want too much too fast...looking back at the most successful people in the world who have left a legacy or a mark...the key to their success was determination, faith and patience...Im pretty laid back because I believe in the goodness of the world...karma...and I believe in myself and my potential...for me its not about success rather more than about reaching goals and being really happy with the sense of achievement of making my dreams come true.
For now its baby steps...Ive done that my whole life and Im really glad of where I stand today...I think the best advice I could ever give is live your life like you have nothing to lose..immerse yourself in it..make your mistakes and stay true to yourself...last but not least don't give a damn what other people think..either theyre too scared to follow their own dreams...afraid to non conform or are just plain judgmental which is really sad...Raise the bar and rather than talk about it represent yourself with your actions and if you screw up..youre human..theres always tomorrow to set things right...we have a responsibility to inspire each other and the generations after us, the same way our older generations inspired us with their wisdom...but always always do it with a twist because life has a sense of humour...inject your personality in everything you do and you will never fail...not succeeding doesn't mean you failed if you had enough courage to follow your deepest wishes.

On a lighter note...Ive been having a blast of a time...thats for another entry...for now I leave you with my favourite part of my entries...a couple of my favourite childhood carefree songs to kickstart your weekend

Lots of love and bubbly hugs
xx
PC

M.D

Ive been inspired by many people growing up...when applying for college I'd come across the question 'Who is your role model?' countless times and it always made me think to myself...I have none.

I appreciate the different facets that make up different personalities...I love all sorts of unique and quirky traits...and Ive always admired specific qualitites to the vast majority of people that have touched my life...to label someone a role model would be to put them on a pedestal to only realize after much adulation that they are after all only human...thus explaining my point that we are so interesting and complex...the many layers that make us up are too deep to limit to only one person...and my goal has always been to produce a better version of myself with each passing day and with every phase now and then I look at how Ive morphed and what my ideal ways of reaching my own finish line are before competing against myself to finally put a tick next to my new accomplishment be it personal or professional.

The medical field has always been academic and clinical...Physicians are trained to focus on that and have a sense of responsibility and detachment to the point where Im surrounded by excellent doctors hospitals over who have lost their lives in the world of their own passion treating diseases and ailments and accomplishing their own sense of satisfaction with every successful procedure or degree attained...but yet are out of touch with their private selves and personal lives.

As a woman with her own sense of self possession I realize that yes I love my profession to bits and I have lots to look forward to in terms of achieving with the coming years, but I have a deep rooted sense of being a woman that I believe is wholly crucial in maintaining a sense of identity...femininity is after all what separates us from the boys...and the fun that Ive had in this life being a girl I would do all over again if I had to...Im not a feminist in any way and Ive never believed in equal rights...as girlish creatures of the complex land we are bestowed with rights by just staying true to who we are and what we want out of life.

Whilst watching the primaries a while ago I noticed Hillary Clintons ratings drop in favour of Barack Obama..At one point infamous and highly esteemed fashion maven Anna Wintour invited Hilary for the highly coveted cover of a Vogue photoshoot...Latin sensation Jennifer Lopez has never been invited for one, but Hilary got the chance to empower females across the country and the power of fashion media to send her message across the entire world...Diana did it...Jacqueline Kennedy embraced it...Hillary Clinton?

Refused.

She was afraid she would have subjected herself to ridicule and barbie jokes across Capitol Hill and the rest of the States...by running like a man she was denying herself the truth of who she actually was and rather than stay true to herself and unapologetically embrace it she avoided the obvious and who can trust that? Ratings dropped everywhere.

Imagine my delight when I discovered Lisa Airan a couple of years ago.

Dr Lisa Airan is one of Manhattan's most prominent cosmetic dermatologists...after Oprah she became a world renowned one and has an impressive resume to match.

Not just a pretty face she has combined her love of aesthetics with her flair of fashion to create a blend of medicine and femininity...the results? Gorgeousness.

Dr Airan epitomizes everything I celebrate and respect in a woman...her face has graced the pages of Vogue many times and it seems that she just cant stop working and having a blast whilst shes doing it...if that doesnt inspire then I do not know what will..for now all I can say is I cant wait to meet her this summer hopefully because she's the only person in this world whom I can trust with my skin...That is until I get my own degree.

The mating game

I couldnt not post this week =D...lots of work and a million things to do...Ill update soon sometime midweek...left you all with an ultimate favourite track to enjoy...sleep tight.
Hugs xx

E=MC2

Back in 92 when I was 12 I heard a track called 'Cant let go' followed by 'I dont wanna cry'...for the next few minutes I was completely entraced...they were a gorgeous beautiful melancholic pieces of work that spoke out to me in the voice...Id never heard anything like that..It was the 90's after all and we had the begining of R&B and some of the greatest songs ever produced in that era...but there was something about this woman that touched me...in 1995 her album Daydream was my album of the year and my favourite track was 'underneath the stars' a poetic portrayal of the innocence of first love and the purity of succumbing to a power that overwhelms and hypnotizes you to another realm of existance...where nothing in this world could ever matter.

I love her because she was with me all the way from 12 to 27...her music and girly life have inspired me...gave me an outlet when I needed it and I have some of the best memories of my life to alot of her albums...they take me to different times and different places.

I was fortunate to meet her twice in 2002 once in a concert and the next day I met her in person...shes got gorgeous flawless skin and is incredibly sweet...I framed her autograph and its one of my favourite memories in the world.

Shes truly one of the bestselling artists of our time not only because of her voice but because she writes her own lyrics herself on each and every song...and theyre deep...theyre utterly romantic...and they take you away..



The song above is from her new album and the songs Im posting below are the favourites I love and wanted to share with you...have a relaxing evening xx

A day in the life of an insomniac

Love this vintage style calendar <3>

Quickie 5 min touch up to look fresh...Chanels facepowder/subtle highlighter..fave blush...a stain of Beige Vanille Guerlain on my lips and a spritz of my signature Chanel scent as Coco used to say...place your perfume wherever youd like to be kissed *swoon*

Must haves...Shiseido hand cream...Agenda Im also an amnesiac now lol...little notebook for quick rounds and ssexy betty boop for longer notes to prepare..of course the surgical handbook for quick info at your fingertips...I have to find my Oxford one :S

Hopping in the car

Driving to work in the morning with my beloved lounge music or Fairouz <3

Weekly update on new advances in surgery

Journal club for discussion of latest surgical literature published in journals

View from conference room with sunlight streaming in

The on call call room...lol no Greys Anatomy Mcsteamy and Mcdreamy antics going on in here.

The black coffee ritual...lets just say its a jolt that shocks your system and allows you to function

Nursing station where al the patients files are written up on and lab tests checked on during rounds.

Work station where we write most reports and gather together to discuss patients on our morning rounds

Oscar and Lucy (I have to change their names) cheer me up every day at the nursing station

Daily ritual of unwinding to music online

lol reading material tonight...Vogue and a surgical literature paper

Out of the kazillion Chanels I own I

Couldnt decide which everyday bag to change into to...finally the reissue won :)

My private room where I get to unwind and get treated like royalty with my favourite beauticians

The sssexiest shade of red ever invented on my freshly parafined toes..soft as a babys butt :D

theres the cutest surprise in there for myself

I had to get the shoes to match with this Champagne coloured evening bag...dreamy

This picure just does no justice (click pic for a close up)...its sparkly and is a sexy statement to a simple look

Fell in love with a black cashmere dress that is so Coco and so me...just add my Chanel ballerina flats and some pearls and lounge at home in.
Heres a gorgeous gray taffeta skirt that I have to have and deciding between two swimsuits
Also picked a cute hoodie to make my jeans looks sssexier :p

Moms day present :)

My cant live without Chanel No.5 milk bath and bath oil (Ive been loyal for seven years now) with origins nitghttime antioxidant mask and my softttttt snuggly bathrobe..cosiness doesnt get better than this :)

Im addicited to quiet sensuous lighting before bed especially since med school

My fave scent along with Diptyques Gardenia and Jo malones Pomegranate..heavenly sleep x

Have a starry night xxxx

What it feels like for a Doctor

Initial incision and exploration

Professor,specialist and resident..me :)

Holding the tumour.

"There's this whole ritual around going into the OR for a transplant that makes me feel like a high priest going into the temple: I cleanse myself, the patient is cleansed, and we go to a sterile environment.
The donor heart arrives in a cooler, and it feels like frozen turkey. It's about the same color, too. And slippery. Sewing it in should take less than forty-five minutes. To make sure no air gets in, the final sutures are put in underwater — under blood, actually. It's sort of like having sex: You need to feel the stitch. You sense the tip of the needle, and it has to feel correct — you're not going in too far, or missing the tissue, or getting too small a bite. As you're sewing, the heart starts to fill with blood. You have to time the last suture just right, just as the blood gets to the top.
The real anxiety comes when both clamps are removed and the blood starts flowing with pressure through the heart. That's when I can't help but wonder if I just killed someone. The new heart jumps around, trying to get its rhythm, like a fish flopping in a bucket of blood. Sometimes it can't. It just fibrillates, beating spastically, and we have to shock it.
The first five minutes are the most critical. If the heart turns from cream to pink, the color of a juicy steak, we're optimistic. There's this incredible feeling of bliss, like we've just reached our Zen moment. The high fives come out. But if it turns dark red and looks bruised, it's damaged, sometimes irreversibly. Then we close the skin up with number-two nylon, and I go out to tell the family I'm sorry."

Dr Mehmet Oz, World renowed Cardiac surgeon.

We had a patient come in diagnosed with a tumour in the abdomen scheduled for excision. On examination the mass was partially small and mobile.

After we opened her up I was so shocked to see the size of the tumour...literally it was the size of a fist.The worst part of it all was that it was so attached to the surrounding organs by adhesions that the Professor couldnt tell where the source of the tumour was...the pancreas was wrapped around it...was apprehensive about cutting off the bile duct by mistake...so he decided to go for a Whipple.

In the Whipple operation the head of the pancreas, a portion of the bile duct, the gallbladder and the duodenum is removed. Occasionally a portion of the stomach may also be removed. After removal of these structures the remaining pancreas, bile duct and the intestine is sutured back into the intestine to direct the gastrointestinal secretions back into the gut and allow the patient to have normal functions...the tumour was extremely vascular and it took a really long time to carefully dissect it out without causing serious bleeders..After almost four tense hours the tumour was out...the anastomosis was done...the drains inserted to prevent collections of fluids in the abdomen postoperatively and we closed up the skin.

It was the most thrilling experience ever...to be a part of helping someone in that way is something I cant describe...it pushes you...drives you...and brings you a sense of exhilaration...Im so grateful everyday for learning and for being given the privilege to continously keep that learning process undergoing until enshalla one day many years from now I will master it to an art.

The patient is recovering well el7amdilah and her prayers to the Professor on the round the next day just humbled me because this is what its all about...we strive to learn...to help...to improve ourselves as people and physicians everyday...and through all the personal struggles we have in our daily lives...the work problems and challenges we face as the beginners of the long road ahead of us...those prayers are what keep us going.

My la-la land

Im currently at work right now...on gorgeous Friday morning...its peaceful and really soothing.Woke up refreshed today after an early nights sleep (finally) the best thing about Friday work? No traffic...just a long wide expanse of clear road along the beachfront the cloudy skies up ahead tinged with the rays of sunshine playing peekabo casting different subdued hues across the sparkling sea.I popped in my chillout lounge CD and listened to zero 7's waiting line...the ultimate in morning smooth grooves...I put in a clip for you guys to enjoy too while you read the rest of this entry.

Walked in and whilst Im waiting for patients decided to do my shopping online...yippy skippy at the sexy stuff Im finding...Honestly this season Ive fallen in love with Miu Miu...gorgeousness...as a true Lanvin addict Ive never been disappointed..I found some very soft pieces..and a couple of Alberta ferretti silk dresses..lol not to mention the black silk Stella flapper style dress that I can dress up or down in a million ways...Im thinking biker jacket and ankle boots...or delicious Chanel pearls and silk louboutins...lol I can go on.
Its just that with all my life and time in the hospital...always trying to study for residency placement exams I get caught up in it all...I love creativity and like all the other women in this world fashion is an outlet for my creativity...an expression and an extension of myself and my varied moods...and since I barely have time to trawl the malls of dxb...AD is not exactly a variety filled garden...just labels and no sizes and no choice...its either when Im on vacation or online wrapped in my PJ's and snuggly robe...Heaven...

In the meantime I cant wait to hit the gym again in a couple of weeks...surgeons not allowed me to work out just walk for now...but on a plus note to add to my motivation I found the Chanel tennis racquet I was trying to hunt down..so cuuute...on a down side lol they didnt have the skirts I was lusting for.

Theres this Stella outfit above that I fell in love with...clean fresh simple lines and another cute one thats just fun...Im still on the lookout.

After the coaxing of one my sweetest pals...Im also going to take up skiing this year...lol another reason to hunt down Chanel skis ahahaha and a gorgeous snow bunny outfit to match...it'll be perfect for the upcoming summer months especially as I hate travelling in summer,for me its so passe...Fall winter vacations are incredibly delicious...and loads of fun.

I gotta run off right now...loves you guys bunches xxx